Beyond Sunday Morning

I was going over our Sunday School lesson for tomorrow morning, It's called: Summoned to Labor.
And the scriptures Luke 10:1-20 reveals God's primary will for our lives as Christians. Christ sent out 70 men with a command to "reap" the souls "He" had harvested. Meaning there are souls waiting to be brought in, "I" have already prepared them, all you have to do is go and get them, that's it!" (We literally have free and open souls waiting on us to get there.) So Christ says to them "GO!" The Harvest truly is Great, but the labourers are few. We, as the chosen of God, can not sit content in our own salvation, and let "The Harvest of Christ wither away, we have to go out and get them.

Would you stand by and let fresh vegtables, produce, and even finances that you've planted and invested grow up, only to be left there? What purpose would your hard work have served? Would it not be in vain?

As the Holy Spirit was revealing this to me I began to repent to Christ because I know I have not done all I should to bring in "His Harvest, and that's just a hard truth?

Christ took a huge hit for the team. He planted the seeds, as tough as that ground was He tilled it, and He got those seeds in there! And, at the end of His ministry He sacraficed His Life! And in 3 days He rose from the dead, handing off the baton to us, and with it Power! He said Go, Go and bring them in, they are waiting on you. You have everything you need to do this job!
This command of Jesus is not very difficult, because He reveals that through no power of our own do we have to convince people to be saved, or make them accept Him. God Himself has already done that work.

Some of us have fallen short in God, due to "self-reliance." We've become selectively blind to the fact that this truly is "His Work" and we are simply harvesters in "His fields."

Working for God is not getting up every Sunday Morning, and occupying a seat on the pew, for a few hours. It's not simply singing in the choir, or working as an usher. But what we do "in His fields" Mon-Sat is going to make the difference.

Church, we are behind. It is time for us to catch up and take what is ours! We Must build God's Kingdom. Christ has already done the most difficult part!

Well. Tonight is my last night to stay up late (Past 9:00 pm)

I have to go back to work. My four month hiatus is over. The company I mentioned in a earlier post made me an offer, and wanted me to get started with training, asap. The position is new, I'm the first person in it! I get to set up the guidelines and procedures for the position, and hopefully sculpt it into a department. This would be a great accomplishment. (Supposedly I may have to travel every now and then-that could be interesting)

I have mixed emotions about going back, I enjoy my freedom and being able to work on things that are important to me and my Pastor, and on my own time! But having money is important to me too! lol.. You do what you have to do? Either way I know God will be with me, in it all. I make a decision to glean "Life Long Lessons" from all my secular jobs. And each time I've been able to apply them to ministry! This one won't be any different. "Lord please bless me to love it more than any other company or position I've had" (I may as well love what I'm doing since I'll be there for most of my day!)

At least I can wear Jeans and Tennis, this will make going to work everyday, a lot less stressful!

Auntie's cute little Aryn! (1 yr birthday Party..she'll be two this April? Time seems to disappear into thin air.)

Job Hunt


Okay. I had another job interview today. This one was much better! It was a small office.(a rapidly growing family business called Veneer Stones)As I pulled up, I didn't notice any office buildings..the parking lot was graveled and there was a trailer, with pallets of custom made stone everywhere? I thought, okay? This should be interesting. I was dressed very professional(in a suit) so I didn't expect this setting at all. As I got out of my car dust was flying all around from the small trucks going in and out of the parking lot.(Did I say this one was better??(lol) just keep reading) Anyway, I though oh-kay? I did say I was tired of corporate America, but this is...I didn't know what to think!(it was a first for me) but I couldn't wait to see where it would lead! (lol)

When I walked in I could see the trailer was set up like a small business office, with smaller corner offices, and individual cubicals. Everyone was running around in jeans, and some in tennis shoes! They all seemed joyful, and the jeans? Huge plus! (I was smiling on the inside) They were transiting into another office building because their previous one had an electrical fire.(I knew something was up) But the jeans they said, has always been apart of their dress code. (Yes!!!)

I really enjoyed this interview. It was very different, more relaxed..it was real. I was interviewed by one of the Owners and Managers.(The manager shares my name!) They both were very down to earth, open and upfront about the business and the position(something corporate rarely is) The position is client services(same as my last) but definitely not corporate. They both said they liked my personality and thought I'd fit in well. The position is brand new, so I'd be the only one in it! They'd give me complete power, and said I could create procedures and build the job manuals as I went along. They repeatedly stressed that the dept was mine, do with it what I wanted as long as the customers were cared for and happy! So I thought, sounds great to me! (I hate to be micro-managed) They asked for my salary range, and I gave it to them. (We talked for over an hour-good sign I guess.) We'll see if they call me back! If they do..that's God's will; If they don't that's God's will too! I will rest in that, because it's definitely how I've been praying. All and All, I know it is God's will that I "not" be broke!

II Corinthians 4:18

While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen [are] temporal; but the things which are not seen [are] eternal.



I love it, Everything "we see" is subject to change! Thank you Lord

Who are you looking at?

So. I got a phone call today from a fairly new saint. They called concerned, wanting to know why they hadn't seen a few of the "veteran" saints at church lately. Truth is, I've been dreading conversations like these. How do you tell new saints, trying to hold on, that those they've looked up to and admired all this time, had walk away? I had rehearsed over and over in my mind how I would answer this question without damaging people's Faith, in God. There was not enough sugar, or smoke screens that I could throw up, to make this sound any better. (I know! I've tried it before and it didn't work, my answers didn't make sense so, the questions kept coming!)

I briefly paused..and said; "They left." "They are no longer members of our church." I could hear the gasp in their voice, "What..Why?" they asked. (and this person was not trying to be messy, they were really concerned about these people. (I was hoping they didn't ask me why, only these people, and God know the real reason) So I said, people walk away or go somewhere they think is better for them. I left this person in a state of: It is, what It is, and quickly ended the call.

The phone rings again, they are back on the line. (Voice sounding a little dismayed) They say; "You know, its sad. You go all of this time looking up to people, admiring them for who they are in God, you see them as someone you'd want to be like, and then they just walk away from it? That's wrong." I quickly sighed and said, "that is very true." (You better have your eyes on God.)

WHO ARE YOU LOOKING AT??

It's natural for us to admire a person and want to be like them. (especially if they are accomplished, talented, or anointed) God wants us to be great examples. But at any time the person you admire decides to go down? You better shake it off, an keep your eyes on Jesus!

Hebrews 12:2 Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of [our] faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.

Today was So So....

 

I had a job interview today, complete waste of time. Took up most of my morning!

 

I've been struggling with whether I should go back to work full time or not. Make no mistake, we "need" the money. But I am kind of dreading it because I am so over Corporate America.   However, it's what I'm experienced in so I'm most competitive wage wise: in this arena.  I don't want to be sucked into the ball and chain again. 

 

I was layed off from a very lucrative position in Sept. of last year,(the branch closed down) and I've been enjoying my freedom! It's given me so much time to write and focus on what I really want to do with my life.

 

 I feel, its been a waste of my time, to spend  8 hours working to fulfill someone else's dream.  However, the security it brings is always tempting, and it's enough to keep you bound.    

 

I've been applying for jobs here and there. Looking for preferably part-time work, so I won't be as tied down. (but haven't received any call backs on those.)

 

I've been praying for strong direction on this one because if I have to go back full time, I definitely don't want to be some place I will come to dread.       

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

IT'S ALL ABOUT "ME"

What happens when we decide to ignore or reject "wise"(Godly) council? When we decide I have to do things "my way" in order to find true happiness, how does that thing turn out? I think Proverbs 1:24-31 sums it up quite nicely.



24 "I called you so often, but you didn't come. I reached out to you, but you paid no attention.
25 You ignored my advice and rejected the correction I offered.
26 So I will laugh when you are in trouble! I will mock you when disaster overtakes you
27 when calamity overcomes you like a storm, when you are engulfed by trouble, and when anguish and distress overwhelm you.
28 "I will not answer when they cry for help. Even though they anxiously search for me, they will not find me.
29 For they hated knowledge and chose not to fear the Lord. 30 They rejected my advice and paid no attention when I corrected them.
31 That is why they must eat the bitter fruit of living their own way. They must experience the full terror of the path "they" have chosen.

(It's just not worth it.)

I'M STILL STANDING...

IT's SUNDAY MORNING, and I am preparing for church with great anticipation. I have prayed and asked God to give me a fresh and exciting love for him. I am so thankful that God has kept me in His peace. I'm thankful that I still have a desire to serve him, and trust his word, no matter what.

It's been proven. It doesn't matter how long you've been saved; Satan will constantly try to turn your heart away from God, and His word. Today our praise team will be singing "I'm Still Standing."
This song is very befitting and is hits home like never before! Many that I personally know have given up on God, and walked away from His word. They have wrestled with it so long and twisted it so, that they no longer know what they believe. Just as Satan planned. It's as old as the trick in the Garden of Eden.

Adam and Eve understood what God meant when he said, Do not to eat from "that tree". But Eve allowed Satan to twist the meaning of God's word to her, and so they fell. (If you'll notice. Eve was not content with keeping her "damanble doctrine" to herself, she had to share it with Adam, taking him out as well.) Beware of people that come to you with a new meaning of what God has "plainly forbidden", because Satan is after your soul.

We may not understand a lot of things, as God told us we would not (Deut 29:29) But we have enough clarity to keep us until the end! This much I do know. Well I'm off to prayer service.. I must go higher!!

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Well it's a new year, and my journey has begun, again! Last year I had a few goals that I vowed would be accomplished. Become certified in CPR: Check! Become a certified group excersise leader: Check! Author and Publish my first book: ummmmm-not so much. Unfortunately I allowed things in my life to side track me, months at a time. I could literarly hear the empty pages of my book calling out to me, but I could not bring my self to write. I simply busied my self with other projects for a temporary fix. And when the year turned I couldn't be upset because I hadn't put in the work to get it done. I was frustrated, but not upset.

You see, when you do little you get little, and when you do nothing, you get nothing in return? It's just the way it is. We can't withhold parts of ourselves or make tiny investments into our dreams and expect we will be successful. We can only be great in the areas we give most of our energy. Now, to be clear, my first goal for 2008 is without a doubt: to grow closer to God. I want a greater relationship with God because I know there is much more to Him than what I know now. Knowing more about Him can only make me love him greater! God has more to share with me in spirit, and I want to receive that. I understand that I can do nothing without Him. Matt 6:33 reminds us all that we should put God first and expect the rest to follow. This I will do with gladness.

As for my writing: I spoke to two accomplished women who are involved in my areas of interest. I asked them, "How are you able to accomplish so much?" One of the women(not much older than me) is a mother of two,serves on 2 or 3 committies, has a law degree, recently authored and published a novel,consistently book signings for her novel, and she held a full time job at a demanding investment company! I asked, "Where do you find the time?" She simply said, "You make time for what's important to you". The second woman: separate coverstation, resides in a different part of the country, said the exact same thing. She said, "At that time nothing is more important to me than "that project", I focus on that and don't stop until it is finished." She stressed, "You make it your most important thing." And after I heard that, I said, "this is so true."

We can talk about what we want to accomplish, and what our passion's are in life. But our actions show what our passions are! And if we are investing in everything else except, "that thing" we say, we desire most.(and hopefully God approves) then we are only deceiving ourselves. I will not let that happen to me this year. I made some good accomplishments in 2007 that I am happy about. But this year I've got to give it all I've got. This way if something doesn't happen the way I planned then I know it wasn't because I didn't "do the work", I am going to be prepared as I can be for all my successes. I know God won't let me down. When the right time comes He will be standing at the door, holding it wide open for me, and I will be ready to walk right on through it, or shall I say, Shout on through it!

2008! Who Knew?

If you're reading this then you must be bursting with excitement!

Why? Because you made it through 1 more year! I know there were times when you didn't know how you would make it, but God knew, and He made it happen. Without His mercy you never would've seen today. So glance over your shoulder; smile,wave,and Shout Thank You Jesus! 2008 brings with it another oppourtunity to live the life your were created to live. A life that blooms, in the light of Jesus Christ!

How do you feel, when you're disrespected?

Matthew 7:12...Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, Jesus said, "do ye even so to them…" for this is the law and the prophets


Human beings are vastly diverse, however if there is one thing we all share it is a desire to be taken seriously, whether we reveal it or not it's true.) But what’s interesting is that we don’t always feel obligated to respect others.(You know--everyone, and not just the people you look up to, or the ones that can give you something). Why is that?

Is it because we think we deserve it more, or that we are better? We do deserve it, but we definitely are no better than the next man.

God created us all, no one can operate in his own power or strength. The power to think, talk, eat, sleep, and rise up again does not belong to us, but God. We can have little control. It is because of God that we can do anything. So all of us are really the same; we are all mortal, subject to error and defeat. And because of this we deserve some common courtesy. You may say, "no, I don't agree with that, some people should earn respect", and if they don't respect themselves they shouldn't expect that I will." Well that's just ignorance. When we show those who seem unworthy love, and respect it will show them the humbleness of God in us. (We'd have less defensive people, and explosive tempers to deal with, if more people would do this).


Jesus walked in compassion. He was constantly showing love and respect to those society had written off. Remember the story of the woman who was caught in the very act of adultery? She was dragged from the scene of the crime by self righteous men, and thrown down in front of Jesus to be harshly judged. (St. John 8:3-7)
Of course they did this to trap Jesus--but he taught them a lesson. "You, who are without sin", He says; "go ahead and cast the first stone?" I’m sure the woman braced her self for the many rocks that would soon come flying her way, but there were none? One by one they were forced to drop their stones and walk away!

Jesus was, and is a Hero. He convicted her accusers by placing them in front of a mirror. They too had broken laws. (And no doubt some were still guilty.) Jesus showed compassion for this woman, and respectfully told her to go, and sin no more.
He does the same for you and I today.

Jesus hold people accountable for their sins, but he is fair, and He is loving. It is far too easy to execute a harsh comment or judgment against someone without a second thought. (Yes I have been guilty of this myself.) But, if we practiced this teaching and considered how we would feel if someone were slandering our name, refusing to show us mercy, or went off on us in a fit of rage, not considering the long term affects. It would hurt us, and we would not appreciate the disrespect. So why is it that we can’t think this way when we’re doing it to others?

What if we knew for a fact that everything we did to other people; or said, good or bad would come directly back to us? Would we be more careful? I believe so. And the truth is, what we do to others does come back. We may not always notice it right away, but what we do to others, will return to our door in some fashion.

We shouldn’t think so highly of ourselves; that we’d give ourselves the right to misuse, or disrespect another human being. (By being ugly and condescending) “Who are we, but flesh;” subject to the same elements. God wants us to show love and compassion. And we need to bind Satan, and rebuke the urge to tear other people down or judge harshly to make ourselves feel better. We all have sinned and come short of the glory of God, we’ve all messed up and we knew it was not a good feeling.

Does this mean, we excuse and tolerate sinful behavior? NO! God forbids us, the word tells us to rebuke and reprove (2 Tim 4:2) cry loud, and spare not (Ish 58:1) but first make sure you’re not guilty, and then consider yourself.

Let’s start practicing this more and more in our daily lives, respecting another man’s name, his words, and his space. Even when we must tell hurtful truths, we can still do it in love and with respect.

Ish. 55:10-11

I am loving this passage of scripture today. Verse 10 especially, it says; that God’s words are as the rain and snow, when it goes forth it has a purpose, and it will not return unto him; UNTIL it accomplish what it was sent after. It says it will bring forth and bud, that it will give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater!
When rain falls from the sky; it doesn’t rain just because. Rain has a command from God, and it is focused on its mission; Rain does not stop moving until it has satisfied what it was sent to do. (That it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater.) We must see this powerful comparison of rain and snow to God’s words as more than a cute passage. This verse is alive and kicking! God's word is sent to satisfy, to make full! Once God speaks a promise, once he speaks over our lives, the words can’t die. That Rain(the word)will not return unto God void, He must be satisfied, and until He says "it is good" he won't receive them back.

If you haven’t received what you were promised by God, don’t freak out, because He's not content either. (We should also remember; His ways are not our ways. Look for the fulfillment of your promise in unconventional ways.) It will not always spring up how we’d expect, but it will spring up, in the season that is best.

YOU MAKE ME LAUGH! HAPPY HOLIDAYS!




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THE GOLDEN COMPASS...harmless entertainment?

It was brought to my attention that there are some christians that don't see this movie as harmful. Now I'm not one to get into these kinds of debates, like the whole Divinci code saga a while back, I think its a deversion and waste of time. But when one self proclaimed Christian stated that some christians are too serious about things like this, and its harmless enterainment I had to say something! I believe everyone needs a reminder, of what we're up against.

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I've heard so much about this movie, and I decided early on that I would not go see it. We must Get that Satan is a trickster, He is a liar, and a theif. His job is to steal, kill, and destroy..St. John 10:10..He "decieves"... Theives, don't steal in light but they disguise themselves. And why not use entertainment, it seems harmless, and It has the largest audience?

Don't be tricked...

This is "serious" business, we are talking about our souls here, Christians(and all people) should be very "serious" about that...We only get one soul.(and I want mine to live forever with Christ!)
Satan wants us to see him as a "small threat" or not to believe he exists at all! If Satan came after you dressed in a red suit, horns pertruding out of his head, with a giant pitch fork, trying to convince you to turn your back on God, of course you'd run...Without a second thought.

Young people, (and Old), be very careful at what you entertain. Time is running out, and the enemy has stepped up his soul stealing tactics, he's going to use whatever he can to turn people against Our Creator, Our God, "Our ONLY SAVIOUR" without Christ, we're doomed. Right now we have a choice, Satan has nothing to lose.. But We Do....(please run in the opposite direction of this movie and other forms of entertainment like it!)

WE NEED EACH OTHER..

Tonight was fun! My husband decided he was going to go out with some of the brothers from church for dinner, and just hangout. So a few of us girls decided we'd do some hanging out of our own. We went to Studio Movie Grill, and watched an amazing movie ("August Rush"),and afterwards we sat down at a Chili's resturant to share desserts, and enjoy each others company. The thearpy we receive through fellowship is amazing. August Rush was so unbelieveably good, that we all wanted to cry, and some of us did! We couldn't stop talking about it as we were being seated at the resturaunt. Soon, we began to consumed our very fattening Chocolate Molten Cake and ice cream; we laughed our selves silly over simple things. The laugh-a-thon brought several glances our way; some where accompanied with a smile. Laughter brings joy. They couldn't help but shoot us a smile back!

God designed us for fellowship, yes there are times when we want to be alone, and sometimes we should be. But it is not good for a human being to be alone "All" the time. We have to nurture, love on, and revive one another. Satan has at one time or another, tried to make us believe that we don't need friends, or fellowship. But that is a trick from the pit. When we fellowship with good people, especially Godly people, it nurtures a part of our spirit that may have been sluggish due to the wear and tare of every day life. Constant neglect of fellowship can promote self-pity, and even depression. Fellowship heals.

As we all got into our cars and went our separate ways, I smiled within because I felt good about our outing. There was no competitive conversations, no big I's and little u's. No one person making it all about them; just good clean fun for everyone, and apparently this was the perscription that all of us needed to close out the week. As I continued to rehearse the night in my mind, I received a call from one of the women in our group...."Hey, I just wanted to say, I had fun. This has been a very hard week for me, and I needed this."

Well back to the drawing board! A few months ago I posted a comment regarding a scholarship Program that Darius and I were accepted into. We recently withdrew voluntarily from the program. After being apart of the forum we realized we'd have to give up the precious rights to our story. "our 11 year journey" All print rights would be theirs, and without certain guarantees of getting what we wanted, our children. And even if they were guaranteed, we just didn't think giving up the rights to "our story" which God said we'd share all over the world(media and print)was worth it. So after praying, despairing and of course counsling, I decided to pull us out. My husband was 100% in agreement. God is definitely running this entire show, because I see no way, but By Faith. We have to trust God completely. (The substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen).

ITS MY 33RD BIRTHDAY!

I always look forward to my birthdays. I know most people don't like getting older, I can relate to that. It's not fun knowing that you have to work harder to keep your weight off, and keep fine lines at bay. But I enjoy getting older, it's just a reminder of how gracious God has been to me. Also my husband has been so wonderful, each and every birthday he has managed to make it feel like christmas for me! He is so sweet and thoughtful I got a new laptop to replace the one that worked perfectly fine(he just said, this one is much better, so I was like OK!) And he gave me a bottle of my new favorite perfume. I have wanted this perfume for atleast 2 years and its so expensive I just wasn't sure if D. would get it! But my husband loves me and he always goes overboard on my birthdays I don't know why I second guessed him on this one. I've got to go all out for his in February, because he definitely deserve it.

Also my absent biological father, sent me $200.00 bucks via western union for my birthday early this morning YES!! I was so happy to get this money. Then, my sister n law, brother n law, and mother n law are adding to my birthday blessings on tomorrow! God is so good because we are going to Miami on vacation, and I didn't have much spending money for a 5 day trip. But now we will have! I love birthdays, no matter what the number...it truly is the best time of the year for me! Go 33!!

WOW, I learned an interesting lesson today. It was how to hold your peace when you are the special guest of a character bashing party! Note to self: Very hard, didn't like it, began to second guess my own character. You know people can have you feeling pretty evil for speaking the truth, and sometimes speaking what they are feeling but lack the boldness to say. So I'm apart of this message board for all the women who were chosen for a scholarship for IVF. As you saw in one of my previous postings I am pretty excited about that. Well after we were chosen we found out a few days later that before ivf cycles or clinic matching could begin we had to help raise a few thousand dollars in partnership with the non profit that is giving us the scholarship. Immediately I thought, "okay we have to help them raise money before they will give us what they said we'd been chosen for already." It felt like we had won the lottery with a disclamer attached it. I was some what skeptical at first about that just a little. I was looking forward to getting started right away. But my husband and I definitely could understand why it was important to be apart of this fundraiser since it was an issue that is dear to our hearts. They also said they would help all scholarship recipients raise their money. So I thought that's not bad at all! Ivf is very expensive this is a small price to pay and it is for a very important cause. LIFE! So I immedaitely began to think of how I could get the ball rolling for donations. I soon began to notice several post from young women who had been trying to raise their money for 4 months? And they were voicing their frustrations with it on the board. They were saying they had stalled in their efforts, no one was donated as much or as quickly as they had hoped to the fundraiser and all and all they sound very disappointed and somewhat defeated. I thought, what a let down? These women have waited many years, (as I have) to become parents. Some had given up hope of ever becoming a parent, and they get the news from the program that they have been chosen for the scholarship and they are overjoyed! But now, 4 months down the road they are still waiting(that's 4 periods, 4 more months of crying,4 more months of pain if you have endo, 4 more months of avoiding family functions and outings, kiddie birthday parties etc). because they haven't been able to raise all of their money???? BOOOOO, where's the help? I didn't like that. So I posted to the board that I'd be praying for all of those who were having problems. I also wanted to know some of the women's feelings about this waiting period. I also said this almost feel like a tease. In my opinion it really dos. Not saying that they were actually teasing us with the opportunity to become parents, but it "felt like a tease". Well the founders were not happy with my comment at all, they said they were hurt by it, and felt like I was wrong to say what I did, they also proceeded to list a long resume of thyeir efforts and cost to make this thing happen, and proceeded to say if this isn't for me maybe I shouldn't be apart of it? WOW, so much for being open about infertility struggles within a group that understands?? I understand they must jump through massive hoops and make sacrifices to make this dream a reality for so many families who otherwise would not have a chance. But excuse me? Is this not an open forum for women with similar struggles to talk about their feelings along this journey? One where we can be open and honest? What I said was not derogatory or belittling in any way,nor was it rude. I simply posted an honest feeling. The founders posting was soon followed by a ton of other emails from women who were backing her up, one woman asked, "Why would you say that" Some thought I was not appreciative of what I was getting and the list goes on and on. I so wanted to shoot an email back! Here I was trying to relate to the struggles of these women who have waited all their lives to have children and were denied, they recently get a break but its dangling in front of them like a carrot on a string! And they can't have it because they are not finished raising money, when the program offered to help support them in the fundraiser? So I had a simple question. When do they offer help or has that happened, and that this feels like a teaser. Only one very courageous woman came to my defense and admitted that she understands where I'm coming from and she admitted that it felt like a tease to her as well, and she commended me for speaking up, she also said even though she has almost finished her commitment that it was very hard, she also said its about time somebody was for real, she said these emotions are real emotions it doesn't take away from what the founders are doing at all, and if we can't post our real emotions(good with the bad) on the board then why are we on there?. My husband also made a similar post on my behalf. (which they have not published yet) When I read all of those negative comments towards me, I thought wow. When people feel like someone has all the butter to their bread, they will eat cheese and make pretend like all is well until they can get what they want from them, and I have never been like that EVER. I was very respectful. I sent an apology to the founders out of respect because they said my comment hurt them, but I did not take back the comment. I didn't say "oh that's not what I meant, because it was what I meant?" I apologized that they were hurt and that may way of trying to relate may have been inappropriate(to them) I thank God that I didn't have to defend my self, God did it for me. Truth and being bold is never popular, I learned today that when we venture out to make a bold statement, its a risk ( because you never know what response you'll get) , and if we take the risk we better be sure that we can stand our ground when the bullets come flying back. If you know that your motives were right and you spoke the truth in Love..There's no reason to take it back? You can apologize for their hurt, but its still true. Those women on that board tried to make me seem ungrateful and like an evil person for saying what I said, all while making them selves look really good.(hum) But I know what they are really feeling, And I didn't have to say a word God did it for me! Thanks Darius and Thanks Alison R. And Thank you God.